selfish

we constantly question others why they are that
but have we ever tot about what we did?
nuttin but satisfying your own needs
others can give their time selflessly to you
yet you do not when others ask of you
time is universal and standard for all
they're there to catch when you fall
all you could do was stand there and watch them crawl
stop entertaining those thoughts
the world will leave if you’re caught
experience is the only thing you need to know
when will you ever learn?
selfish is what you need to let go

Its 12 in the day I’m still dreaming
Observing you in your special ways
Futile efforts to stay clear
I cant see My vision is blur,
Every time I try to speak up but my speech is slurred
Feeling Ecstatic seeing you smile it’s so fantastic
Like jay and B crazy in love, you and me blessed from above
Sign from god manifested as a dove
lemme caress your body,
Lips at where you wan
You’re a maze, Im amazed
Guide me through this empty space
Candle lights, slow music
Sweet kisses , no mistakes
So I can make the right connections
Pop champagne to this evening of perfection
Feel the warmth flow through our body
Move closer as lust takes over
Let’s jump to the foreplay skip playing games
Let’s make love have kids bearing combination of our names
Happiness is what is seen
Short lived make me piqued with this love thing.
When I open my eyes everything’s just a dream.
star in a stormy night
Incandescent lady in white
Pierce my darkness with yr ray of light,
I see you everywhere I go,
When I near and when I’m far
Hide behind walls just to see you from a far
You’re perfect im just a guy bearing a scar
Stunned by your shy smile, hoping you look my way
But when you do I wish you didn’t
Oh wait it isn’t me your looking at.
Apprehensive you look more fierce than tame
Talk to yr frens just to know yr name
Plan to go slow no need to rush that’s my game
Walk towards you and introduce myself
Hi my name is ed,
Im chubby but u can call me fat.
Trials and tribulations mark with tatts on my back
My arm and my chest including my wrist fat
Trials and tribulations mark with tatts on my back

I may look fierce but im not
This mask on is hard fought
Self-made self taught never once caught
Schedules packed tight
Schools by day and work by night
Hustling for mine hard but legit
Road ahead is long and rigid
Time is money but both are of the essence
In this life never once can you leave this line
Struggling just to stay afloat.
My mind is a castle with a moat.
all i can say is that yr name never left my mouth

happy bday lynn..!

its lynn's bday today, that girl is 19 now. Older but dreads being older.
I got my own laptop formatted, no its reformatted. and i did it myself. haa im such a genius,(Ida i added 10 points haha.)
I need a break seriously need a break. i think my body's breaking apart, and my head's spinning everyday in school.Break me pls...
people come visit me at iguana's..my schedule's currently fixed at mon,tues,fri, sat. s if u're thinking or planning anything consult this here.

oh and hey...this guy called zach if its correct, previously from yusof ishak ,my secondary school is WMC! (world muay thai champion). he's my new idol now..

why can some people change in such a short time, is it good to be able to adapt to changes so fast and lose touch with the people whom you hold dear and close or let emotions control and stay behind.

And sorry shruti baby, haven't have the time lately, dont be angry ok? promise meet u up soon.


any body got any recipes to share pls post it here.